before you read this...
I typed it with shaking hands
and a heart that hasn't stopped aching
since the moment I let you down.
You stood in the fire alone,
and I — the one who should've been your shield —
became just another shadow watching.
when your voice needed mine beside it
that put someone else where you should've been
that you fought alone — while I just stood there
Some wounds don't bleed.
They just go quiet.
— Sarshij
April 4, 2026
That your tears were real — and I was the reason behind them
That being present means nothing if your heart stays silent
That you deserved a warrior — and I gave you a spectator
That we almost ended — and I would've lost the only thing that matters
And the hardest lesson?
You can love someone deeply
and still fail them completely.
Not with grand words.
Not with empty gestures.
But with who I become from today.
Your shield.
Always.
You first.
Before everyone.
My voice.
Never silent again.
A better man.
Starting now.
Your trust.
I'll rebuild it.
This heart.
Only yours.
If I could hold time in my hands,
I'd go back to that moment
and choose you.
Every time. Every single time.
I'm not the same person I was yesterday
Something inside me broke — and grew
I'm still here. I'm not going anywhere.
Will you let me
love you right
this time?
The strongest love isn’t the one that never hurts —
it’s the one that stays
when leaving would be easier.
Every second since you changed my life
💕 since the night everything began — Feb 8, 2026 💕